What makes me REALLY crazy?

Recently someone posted an article in one of the FB groups I follow which caught my eye. (A link to it is provided at the end of the blog).

The title "I Spent My 20s Trying To Get Rid Of My Anxiety, Here’s The One Thing That Actually Worked" lured me in. 

At first I was a little dubious - I always am of these kinds of articles, I mean, it's perfectly written to get you clicking! But I immediately connected with the writer and the article.

The way she speaks about "stuff weighing her down", " feeling like a person who doesn't have her sh*t together because her home was a mess" , "feeling fresh and healthy when her apartment was cleaned and de-cluttered" and even that her "most relaxing part of her week is deep cleaning her room each Sunday" (oh I can so relate to that!) kept me interested. 

I could tell the writer was high sensitive. An empath. This woman is just like me.... I thought.

I hate mess too. I think my life is falling apart if theres too much mess. I hate clutter. Most of all; I hate how crazy, stuff and clutter make me feel. I wouldn't call it anxiety per se. More like an intense yet subtle, long term annoyance, like a dripping tap, a ticking clock, an itchy top. It makes me CRAZY.

On edge, irritable, uncomfortable and annoyed. Horrible to live with. Unable to concentrate on my life - unable to get on with what I need to do, and when you're trying to make your way as a self-employed lightworker, you really don't need anything holding you back!

I'm not just talking unwashed pots or unmade beds. I'm talking messy cupboards full of unused items, unworn clothes, clutter, trinkets and unwanted gifts, run-out pens and things you have to keep 'just in case' - like I need another spare bottle of eyelash glue!

And I realised I've never written about my experience, because well.... my crazy cleaning thing is just that - a bit crazy. But it's just not just cleaning - clearing and throwing and giving away. It's always been my dirty little secret for years - no pun intended!

And speaking with a few females in my life, it seems its not just me. Maybe you resonate with my intense hatred of "stuff" and clutter?  Maybe you feel anxious and annoyed but don't know why.  Maybe you feel trapped and overwhelmed when you visit a friends home who does like "stuff". Maybe you can't face throwing stuff away, scared to offend, seem ungrateful or fear you're going to let something go and then need it a week later - but you feel anxious, agitated or stressed when in certain environments?

Can "stuff" really make you anxious?

Well yes, certainly if you're sensitive. Sensitives or empaths (think you might be but don't know what I'm on about? Read this...) feel more than others, they pick up on subtle energies in their environment.  They have a finer tuned nervous system - hyper aware and sense subtleties in the environment, unseen or unfelt by other people. 

Everything is energy. It has been scientifically proven that everything (everything) is made up of energy. Atoms and subatomic particles make up our entire universe.

And everything you own contains it's own energetic vibration, it's own energy. 

That pile of magazines - energy. 
The old unworn clothes - energy. 
The unorganised mess that is your workspace - energy.

And all that extra old, stagnant energy is hanging around and clogging up YOUR energy (It's all energy baby!), YOUR environment, YOUR emotional well being and YOUR feelings, making you prone to feeling anxious, irritated and agitated in your own environment and not being sure why.

Your ego (the part of you which thrives on fear, worry and anxiety) feeds off this and something as simple as a bit of clutter becomes the silent enemy.

So try clearing out and organising - just take an hour out of your week.. even 30 mins  (speaking from experience you can throw away A LOT of stuff in 30 mins! ), clearing, creating space and letting go of all that no longer serves any purpose in your life. 

As elsa would say... Let IT GOOOOOO!  

The original Article can BE FOUND HERE.

Lets' be brave, not perfect

Why do our girls strive for perfection and our boys actively seek out challenges? What impact is this having on the economy and the world? 

Well, millions of women and young girls are sat at home, unfulfilled and in 'safe' jobs because of it - not fulfilling their potential and not lighting up the world in the way they should be. 

"We're raising our girls to be perfect, and we're raising our boys to be brave, says Reshma Saujani, the founder of Girls Who Code. Saujani has taken up the charge to socialize young girls to take risks and learn to program — two skills they need to move society forward. To truly innovate, we cannot leave behind half of our population, she says. "I need each of you to tell every young woman you know to be comfortable with imperfection.""
(TED.com)

Reshma's TED talk (link below) made me cry real tears.

Why?

Because I connected with so much of what she said. It made me remember all the times I'd hit backspace and deleted my work before calling my teacher over to say I didn't understand the work.

I'd rather them be mad at me for not doing any work, rather than my teacher see I'd made a mistake and got it all wrong.

I connected with all the times I'd said to myself - I can't do it, there's something wrong with ME.

I connected with and remembered all the times I'd felt small, tiny in fact, when faced with a challenge.  I remembered how I'd hid away, backed off and stayed safe, just so I didn't fail.

I know the girls she's talking about, I have many in my yoga classes and sessions.

I cried because I connected with the girls she spoke about in the video and I think you will too. 

Click here to watch the video

The type who are so scared of getting it wrong, failing or being embarrassed that we avoid challenge at all costs.

But I wasn't taught to be this way. I never remember being told to 'be perfect' or 'don't do that - you're not brave...'

I don't remember ever being taught to be cautious.

I also cried because I recognised these things in my 4 year old daughter too, and that got me thinking...

"Are girls not only socialised to be this way - but what if they're born this way too?"

It breaks my heart when my little babe gives up on something or won't even attempt something because she's scared of getting it wrong or she finds it too challenging. 

She's done it since she was a baby - she sat for 10 months - watching and absorbing, before she even attempted to pull herself up and take baby steps. 

Only when she absolutely knows for sure she will be able to do it, does she even try it. Which is an awesome and cautious quality to have, but I fear as she gets older this caution may get worse.

I have never told her not to be brave. I never told her to be careful. I always had a sense that no matter what she did, she would be OK and I wanted her to be as confident as she could be. But no matter what I did, she has always and continues to be cautious, careful and thoughtful.

I worry maybe I passed this on during pregnancy. Did she get her perfection ways from me desperately trying to be the perfect breastfeeding mother - but failing miserably and feeling inadequate? 

Did she sense my disappointment with myself when I wasn't able to get back into my pre-pregnancy jeans after 4 weeks? 

Did she sense my eager and overbearing perfectionist streak, whilst she was growing inside of me?

The perfectionism which was forced upon me by society and other women?

When will we draw the line with perfectionism and know that it is unattainable for 99.999999999999% of the whole population?

I beg, suggest, propose and plead with you to stop measuring yourself to others, stop aiming for perfection, be happy with what you can do, what you are able to achieve, and most of all:

BE BRAVE! Feel the fear and do it anyway! 

Kathryn is a mum of one, Teen Yoga teacher and EFT practitioner, specialising in helping young women and teenagers overcome self-doubt, high sensitivity, low confidence and develop into their true potential. She lives and teaches in Sheffield, UK. You can find her on Instagram, Facebook or email her kathrynpearsoneft@gmail.com

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5 things I wish I'd learned BEFORE I grew up.

Sometimes along this crazy journey of life, stuff comes up and I scream:

"Why didn't I know this sooner?"

"Why did no one tell me that?! OMG life would have been so much easier if I just knew that!"

I wistfully wish I had an older sister who taught me the ins and outs of life, to learn from and to confide in.

But I didn't, what I did have was a rocky road of figuring a load of this stuff out for myself. Which is what I needed to do.

Maybe you need to too, but I feel like time is running out, and this stuff needs to be shared.

So I've complied a list of the top 5 things I wish I'd learned before I was 30. Knowing this kinda sh*t now makes my life so much easier - I hope it makes yours easier too.


1. Hands down the best advice I have ever been given is:

"What people think of you is none of your business."

When a friend said this to me it actually cut through me a bit. I was a bit shocked and taken a back. What people thought of me was practically all I thought about! To be told is was none of my business was, well, embarrassing!

As hard as it was to hear it's SO true... read it again..

What people think of you is 100% nothing to do with you.

People will think what they think about you no matter what you do. You can't change people's perceptions about you and most of the time what they dislike about you they dislike about themselves. Never people please and don't hold yourself back in fear of what people 'might' think. Most of the time what you think people think about you is completely false and made up and usually - wrong.

Stop caring about what people think of you and focus on your opinion of yourself. The only person who's opinion matters is your own. Make that one count.

2. That thing you loved to do when you were 3, 6, 8, 10 - do it now too.

Do it all the time.

Don't stop doing it. Don't give it up. Even if you've had a bad experience but you still long to do it - do it. Just because you grow up doesn't mean that you should stop doing what you love.

That 'thing' is most likely your true passion, you're true gift. Don't turn your back on it - keep doing it.

Do whatever lit you up when you were 6 - even if it seems childish. Do it more - make your soul and heart happy. 

Having a happy soul and heart makes you into a happiness magnet - good things and experiences and opportunities will be drawn to you like magic. Make your heart happy and do what you loved to do as a child now. 

3. Life isn't about stuff. 

When you take away your stuff (your car, make-up, fake hair, eyelashes, handbags, clothes etc) who are you? 

Instead of chasing after stuff, chase after experiences which will enrich you as person. Experiences that make you interesting to be around, experiences which humble you and make you feel good. Experience that teach you gratitude, empathy, team work, strength and ones where you make a difference to some one or some thing.

The measure of success isn't how much stuff you own. It isn't about if your stuff is better than someone else's stuff. Your stuff does not matter. 

Stop chasing after stuff. 

4. Law of Attraction is a real thing. 

Books like "The Secret" have made LOA really popular and learning that I was the creator of my reality 4 years ago was mind blowing. 

The LOA is based on the law of "like attracts like".

Birds of a feather, flock together. What you think about, you bring about.

In short: your thoughts create your reality and you attract what you are, both in the positive and negative.

Want someone to love you? Love yourself.
Want success? Think successfully.
Crave happiness? Act happy, think happy.

You are the creator of your reality.

Your mind should be your ally not your enemy.
It is why I love positive affirmations so much and why I love positive visualisations. The whole LOA/manifesting subject is vast and would take so much explaining - but for now keep it simple - You create your reality. Keep your thoughts and visions positive and believe in yourself. 


5. Being sensitive is a thing. 

And it doesnt mean you're weak. It means you're powerful and very much needed in this world. High Sensitives are sometimes called Empaths or Ambiverts.

Being a Highly Sensitive or an Empath can be generalised into feeling and being:
-Sensitive to noise/smells/tastes
-Sensitive to busy places, lots of people - feeling overwhelmed and fussy
-Get easily irritated by uncomfortable clothes or labels
-Appear shy or introverted - especially around new people
-Feel emotions like embarrassment as actual physical pain
-Sensitive to peoples emotions or energy - other peoples emotions can sometimes be felt
-Need lots of rest and alone time
-Susceptible to burn out/exhaustion
-Often seen as a bit psychic/old soul/been here before and usually know and understand whats going on for people without being told - you can sense whats wrong
-Feeling of being lost, alone and like no one understands you

Its a real life thing. Dr Elaine Aron and Heidi Sawyer both have excellent books and research on the topic. If you think you're an empath or High Sensitive I highly recommend their books. 

Knowing this and finding this out for myself was life changing. I finally understood why life had been so hard and why I felt the way I felt. 

I totally believe more and more HS/Empaths are being born in the world. I'm 100% convinced. Why? Because the qualities we possess as sensitives are needed within the world to bring into balance the masculine, technology fuelled, results and target driven environment we live in. There will come a time where our sensitive and intuitive nature and skills will be called for in businesses, hospitals, education, world wide corporations. And if your sensitive I hope you jump on board and follow my journey as I write about my own experiences as a intuitive sensitive and produce stuff to help you deal with your sensitivity.

Light and Love

Kathy xx

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Valentines Self-Love - How being kinder to yourself can increase confidence.

So I had the idea of using Valentines day (or any day for that matter) to carve out some time for some self love instead

Sound too cringefull?! It doesn't have to be! I've gathered 3 simple top tips together below to help you be kinder to yourself.

Self love can be simple, powerful and effective for making us more confident and comfortable in our own skin. A little self-confidence goes a long way in helping us cope with stress - read on for 3 simple tips which you can start using right now!

1. Give your inner voice a makeover.

Listen to you inner voice. What words or dialogue do you repeat? 

What we focus on we become. What we think about we attract - it's basic Law Of Attraction. 

A friend of mine used to repeat to hefself 'annoying', as in 'she was annoying'. Sure enough people thought she was annoying and treated her so. This left her feeling isolated, disliked, low in confidence and ... you guessed it - annoying.

Disempowering inner language can have a huge impact on life experiences,  how we treat ourselves and how others treat us. Here are some examples of how you can change your inner voice to be more empowered.

Disempowering: "No one likes me."
Empowering: "I choose to love myself and nurture my inner confidence, the right person will appear at the right time."

Disempowering: "I'm going to fail."
Empowering: "I choose to meet my challenges with determination and courage."

Disempowering: "I have so much to do. I'm never going to get it all done"
Empowering: "I choose to use my time wisely, I give each of my commitments the time and focus they need. I have nothing to fear"

2. Re- vamp your Self Talk. 
How do you talk about yourself to others and to yourself? Is your vocabulary full of 'I can't, I'm rubbish, I won't, I'll never, I'm not, 
I haven't. ... etc?

Limiting self talk is literally putting limitations on what you can and can't do in life.  You're stopping yourself before you even begin.

The most powerful phrase you can use is: 'I AM...' positive self talk all starts with "I am". Every time a self-sabotaging thought about yourself pops into your head, silence it with a positive I AM statement.

For example:

 
Self-hate: I'm unlovable / I'm not pretty
Self-love: I am loved and loving - I am all that I need to be. I am safe.

Self-hate: I'm going to fail - I'm so stupid
Self-love: I am powerful beyond measure and I have nothing to fear.

Self-hate: I'm so rubbish at maths
Self-love: I am a confident maths student, I am learning everyday.

3. Recall what's already in you.

Whenever you're feeling really low about yourself or you're struggling with a  situation, think of a time when you did something amazing - a time when you surprised yourself or you achieved something outstanding.

Journal it out and free write what it was like, what qualities you showed, what did it feel like to be successful? Gather a list of qualities that you already are - and remember how powerful you already have been.

AND Finally.... use the word YET. .. If you find yourself talking bad of yourself, try these:

I haven't got a boyfriend. .. yet.
No one loves me... yet.
I can't do.... XYZ... YET.

Give yourself the option and the possibility to achieve whatever you want to achieve by using YET. Its powerful!

Wishing you a loving Valentines - a self - loving valentines ;)

I'm defo going to be cracking open the Epsom salts, incense and candles - I may even use last weeks roses and use the petals in my bath! 

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So, You just NEVER get stressed?

A few times this week, I've had this conversation.

People are interested to know what I'm doing but when I tell them, their immediate reaction is to say something along the lines of:

"So you just never get stressed then?"

Whaaaaaat?!?!!? No I didn't say that.

And it dawned on me that people think what I do, what I'm about, is never being stressed; totally getting rid of stress. 

Living in the clouds and wistfully floating around in the world all happy and stress free and annoying.

Not true.

Getting rid of stress is not really an option. Living in the clouds - as much as I'd like to - isn't an option either.

Stress, fast paced lifestyles and set backs are part of life. We need stress to keep us alive.

'Stress' in the form of fear keeps me going! If it wasn't for fear I wouldn't feel like I was doing what I was supposed to be doing. 


I certainly GET STRESSED!

"Stress" or more specifically the Fight and Flight response, is a vital human survival mechanism and without it we would die - simple. But in todays world the Fight and Flight response and the sympathetic nervous system are in a constant state of 'on'. 

And its that 'on' state that makes it really hard for us to switch off and relax and feel like we can cope with all of life challenges. So when something comes along which is quite scary - like an exam you really need to pass - your ability to cope with the stress it creates is unbearable.


So what I do ? What I'm really passionate about:

I teach young people to calm their sympathetic nervous system (stress response) through pranayama, (breathing), yoga movements and EFT, so that you can deal with stress and be more resilient to stressful situations.

Helping you deal with life's challenges.

Helping you to be able to cope better with stress. 

Which in turn helps:

Change your perceptions.

Gets you to think differently. Be happier. More in control. More confident. 

Be amazing. Making a difference in the world. Doing what you love - which in turn lights up the world.

That.

Its not about living a stress free life, (like, who can actually do that?!) it's about learning how to deal with stress and worry, effectively and mindfully so that life's stress or humps in the road don't drag you down, control your life and make you hide away, just like I did. 

Yoga and EFT have helped create massive changes in my life and helped me learn to deal with daily stresses. 

And believe me - I have a 4 year old, money worries, I worry about if I'm good enough, if what I'm working on and towards will be any good, will it all just fail? 

Every time I press 'publish' I get a wave of annoying doubt; "will anyone read it this time? What will-so and-so think?" 

But I learned vital tools and techniques which help me deal with these emotions and thoughts. 

And ALL I wish is that I'd learned how to do that earlier in my life! So thats why I love helping young women like you, learn these tools and techniques, so you don't hide away and let stress, worry and fear keep you small, stuck and hidden.

Its not a quick fix and it can't be done just once. It takes commitment and determination to change. 

Taking care of your emotional well-being during your adolescent years is crucial to avoid mental health problems, such as depression and anxiety disorders, and physical health challenges such as IBS, Headaches, inflammation and other stress related illness in your adulthood.

Prevention is better than the cure ;)

If you want to know more about working with me email info@kathrynpearson.co.uk for affordable packages and classes.

What will they think? How to stop caring what people think about you.

Everything is going great, you're excited about something new happening, you're looking forward to the future, you get a new outfit, you realise you fancy someone; then BAM, your stomach sinks and you remember, them.

That person; who judges you, has something to say about every. single. thing. you do, say, wear, eat, drink...

Sometimes they don't even say anything - you know they're judging you, you can pick up on their thoughts, you know they're laughing about you behind your back.

THEM.

"What will they think? What will they say?" And more importantly who will they say it to and in front of?

 Learning to ignore what people think of you feels like a never ending struggle.

But, IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY!

I spent a huge amount of time worrying about what people thought of me and I limited my life, so that I could avoid embarrassment, judgements and ridicule. 

So here are some tips to help you care less about what other people think and deal with the crap that comes with it...

1. It's not your job to know what every single person thinks.

Hands down the best advice I have ever been given is: "It's none of your business what other people think of you, its only your own opinion of yourself that matters." 

And this could not be more right. 

Who cares what Debbie from Maths thinks of you? Whatever you think she thinks, its probably wrong. Nobody truly knows what another person is thinking - you can't control it anyway - so stop letting it control you. 

•  Next time you catch yourself wondering what someone thinks of you say to yourself "It is none of my business what they think of me, I am amazing and that's all that matters!" (or something similar if 'amazing' is a bit cringe - but you are!)

NB: If someone openly judges or criticises you, then know this - when people judge you, they are usually judging something they dislike about themselves. 

So what they dislike about you - they dislike about themselves. It is so easy to outwardly project a judgement onto someone else. Its not about you, its about them.

2. When people are just mean - piss taking and 'banter'. 

Oh the joyous work of 'BANTER'. People seem to think that if they label bullying as "banter" then it's ok. It's not. 

When people actively take part in banter, bullying, piss taking etc it usually means one of two things: 

1. Firstly - They want your attention; whether it's because they fancy you or they simply want a reaction out of you.

Communicating with members of the opposite/same sex is scary shit. 

If only they knew the way to your heart was kindness. 

Most adolescents are insecure, they play up to the crowd and try to hide their feelings from their mates. 

If they are that annoying - just have a word with them, tell someone, don't speak to them, ignore them, break away from the group, don't put up with it and don't take what they say to heart.

2. Secondly - you make them insecure about themselves, they're jealous of you in some way or they are dissatisfied/unhappy with their own life - making you miserable makes them feel better.

 Harsh but true. 

The loudest most outwardly confident people are quite often the most insecure and unhappy people. Take a second to have some compassion for how they must be feeling to want to make you feel so bad. What must their life be like for them to want to treat you this way? 

I'm not for a second saying you should  put up with 'bullying' just because they're having a hard time; not at all. But realising that it's not about you, its about them, takes some of their power away, making it harder for them to hurt you.

• Next time some banter is going down take a step back and ask 'Is it likely he/she could fancy me or want my attention?', or 'Whats going on for them that's making them treat me so badly?' Send some compassion and love their way and release what they say - its not about you - its them. 

3. Know yourself

If we constantly adapt our lives to fit in, to make sure we are not picked on or stand out, we never get to know who we truly are. 

Each one of us has a purpose for being here in this world at this time - the problem is we forget what it is we are here to do. 

What do you love to do? What lights you up? What makes your heart swell? What are you naturally good at? What did you do easily and freely as a child? 

We are all unique and celebrating that uniqueness is crucial to being happy and releasing what other people think about you. 

What is it you are truly good at? What lights you up? If there were no limits, what would you choose to do with your life. DO THAT, no matter how crazy it seems - do it. 

Lastly - Imagine a white light around you, encircling you and protecting you. It only allows love in and out. Imagine this white light around you when you need protection from hurtful words. It's your energetic seal and once you get practised at imagining it around you, the stronger it will get. 

Also try using these affirmations: 

"Kindness flows out of me and to me, kindness is all around me."

"It's not about me, it's about them, I am safe."

"I choose loving and supportive friends - I am worthy"

Namaste.

Have you downloaded my FREE de-stress meditation recording? It's a free audio file which you can download straight to your phone/device. The feedback so far has been amazing - helping relax and sent so many people to sleep!!! 

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I will not ever do that again...

This time last year life was pretty exciting. I had decided I was going to quit my job to follow my dreams of helping people.

I knew I had more to give and I knew my heart wasn't in my current role as a School Teacher.

I'd discovered EFT - this amazing energetic therapy and it was transforming my life and the lives of my (few) clients.

I started out in January trying to help women with EFT and their struggle with weight and food.

It seemed logical.

Many 'people' had told me this was a lucrative and potentially successful area of business which would help me transition out of my job.

It seemed to use my skills and talents and even to some extent, my passions.

But it didn't feel quite right.

It didn't feel in alignment with my core desires or feelings. It felt a bit ikky.

Inside I was in turmoil. As the weeks passed and I got ZERO clients, I became more and more desperate to course correct and change what I was doing. My blogs were awful. I wasn't writing from the heart. I felt foolish and stupid.

I knew nothing about blogging, nothing about leadpages or growing my list, nothing about vlogs, Facebook ads, starting a YouTube channel, had little experince of working intuitively with EFT, I didn't listen to my intuition very often, I pushed and pushed myself, I didn't really meditate, I lived mostly out of my ego, I didn't do art or wasn't creative as often as I should be, I didn't take time for myself,  I didn't do yoga enough, I didn't breathe properly.

Don't get me wrong... I was learning and making huge steps in January 2015 (and previously in 2014), but I was in a very different place to now.

Thankfully in January 2015 I did something profoundly mind blowing for me. I took a whole 3 evenings and a full weekend away from my family and did a meditation/breathing course with the Art of Living. It was hard pushing through the "I can't leave my family/I feel so guilty/I can't afford it/I'm not good enough" fears!

However: (and I don't say this lightly)

It. Changed. My. Life.

Literally layers of my ego were shed .. by literally I mean I actually saw them evaporate away, leaving my body, disappearing up into the light.

I gained a clear insight into my desires and roots of my frustrations. 

I heard my inner voice loud and clear.

Be authentic

Be adventurous

Help the girls

Shine your light

Use your talents

We are all one

Love. Love yourself. Love others. Love.

It changed me on an energetic level. Life was never the same after that course. I still bang in a out it today because it was profoundly moving for me.

And then in March 2015 I wrote this blog http://eepurl.com/bgPaMz

It was one of the most scary things ever, but reading it back makes me cry with joy.

I told to my 'followers' (aka the world!) that I was changing course and focusing on teenagers. I'd spent the last 7 years with teenagers and I knew how much stress ruled their lives. I knew deep down my mission in life was to help them - teach them exactly what I'd learnt. 

I felt free, liberated, in tune and in the flow. Perfectly in alignment with what I was put here to do.

So March it all changed.  But I had NO idea how it was going to work. 

I kept getting all entangled in plans and more plans. What was I going to do? I had no idea.

But I was blessed with this inner faith and knowing that it was all going to be OK.

All because of my dedicated spiritual practice. 

Daily meditation was at the root of this. I started off doing my Kriya (breathing practice) which I learnt during the Art of Living course for 40 days following my course. But it was full on, fitting it into my busy working/home life was a struggle. I gave gratitude everyday, filling every page of my gratitude journal of 2015. Up until about November I did it religiously every night.  Every night!

Part way through the year the angels called me too! Me and a few of my hardcore tribe soul friends came across some amazing Doreen Virtue angel meditations and I listened to them everyday. I let go. I trusted and I enjoyed every moment of each day.  I felt supported and loved in a very new way. 

Now mid July I still had no clue how I was going to fulfil my dreams of helping teens. EFT seemed the best option at the time and I poured my heart into gaining clients and building my list, Facebook ads and blog writing.

I sent out a very scary blog article to a Blogger site and it was accepted! My very scary and personal  'story' was shared with the world! Find the link to it here: http://eepurl.com/bsBkiH

In August, after finishing Rebbecca Campbell's book, Light is the new black,  I felt confident enough to come out of my spiritual closet and I shared that in this blog - http://eepurl.com/bxg7Ln

I discovered I'm an empath, a highly sensitive person and even deeper than that, an intuitive highly sensitive.

For years I've thought something was wrong with me but it turns out I'm sensitive! Now if getting to know yourself on that kind of level isn't an achievement I don't know what is!

Each time I connected to my inner voice (my soul whispers or my 'intuition') I kept getting the same response:

"Be patient, all is well,  it's coming, we're working it all out for you, keep doing what you're doing, be patient, trust, allow, let go of the outcome"

I'm being serious - EVERY TIME! The same response.

So even in my desperation to know what the outcome was going to be, the only answers I ever got were ones of "just chill Kathy,  it's all fine." 

So I did.

I can't imagine what a state I would have got myself in, or what I would have done out of desperation had I not listened to those whispers. It seemed bonkers to everyone else - but I just kept my cool, chilled and trusted.

One morning in late August I came across a link to Charlotta Martinus' Teen yoga programme.

Ta-dah! Pivotal life moment alert.

I know wholeheartedly this wouldn't have come my way if I hadn't had created the space for it. If I hadn't trusted and let go of the outcome.

So the end of November comes. I'd had a stockpile of clients, written lots more of my book, completed my Teen Yoga training, marketed and carried out some Teen Yoga sessions, been briefly involved with Each Amazing Breath, been in meetings with local colleges and schools about Teen Yoga sessions and even written my most scariest and successful blog/article - which you can find here www.heysigmund.com/anxiety-or-highly-sensitive/ 


My head was spinning and I needed a break.

But the thing is I 'took a break' from everything. My whole spiritual practise broke down. I felt like I was the arm of a record player skipping over and over a record. Stuck. Replaying the same old crackly tune.

Which made the end of 2015 really, really hard. Hard to be positive. Hard to celebrate. Hard to recognise all the achievements of possibly my most exciting, inspiring and transformative year ever. I felt as though I was stuck in thick sludge and there was nothing or no one that could save me.

Writing this has been so cathartic for me.

I wasn't even sure I was going to publish this, I mean, who needs to hear THIS?!

But then something from my Time hop made me sit up and take notice. This time last year (and every year for the past 7) I was sitting at my desk MARKING A Level coursework - I hated it. I remembered very strongly how much I hated it. It was like a smack in the face - sit up and realise how far you've come! Sit up and acknowledge all that you've done, achieved and accomplished.  Sit up and bloody realise how amazing you are!!

I remember promising myself "I will not ever do this ever again - ever!"

And thats coming true.

I pushed through my ego fear of caring whether people want/need to hear this. My year was so transformational because I listened to my inner voice and wrote what it guided me to. And that helped people. It inspired people and it allowed me to feel in the flow. 

It doesn't matter if Im the only person to ever read this. It will go where it needs to go. I'm not attached to the outcome and 2015 taught me that.

My 2016 started with lots of meditation, gratitude and connecting with my soul whispers and I can safely say it will end that way too.

Thank you 2015. You were amazing. And I mean amazing. So much more has happened and unravelled and I'm so in love with my journey. I'm so in love with the soul who I am. I'm forever grateful.

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